i am not doing so well. my craziness has transformed into idleness and those five pounds lost have adjusted into being five pounds gained.

fml

18 days

day 4

started off strong, only to be captured by the lure of the crosswords. Walked, stretched, showered, vacuumed, cross words. Now I'm stuck in a feeling of extreme blah.

good god save me.

Day 2

So I haven't accomplished much, and I'm solely writing to fill my time.

BLERGH

Day 1

Here I start, on my bed, with a stomach full of food. What is this? This blog, is the next project I will attempt to try to find something to fill my time with, at least until I leave for school. I have had many side projects, but nothing more extreme than simply cleaning my room and nothing long lasting. (if it is, I tend to just forget about it and start back at square one)

So what is 28 days till NYC all about; other than occupying my time? I'll be leaving to my dream school, NYU, August 29. My mother, father, brother, and myself will drive up to Newark, NJ, and drive into 'the big city' on the 30th to unload my things in my new dorm, Third No. That's in exactly 4 weeks, 28 days. There are so many things I want to accomplish by then, so I'm better prepared and happy once my family drives away. 

Now don't get me wrong, I'm no depressed Delilah or anything. I just have been. Depressed; that is. My most recent boyfriend and I have ended things and in that period I went from top of Mt. Everest happy, to watching four straight seasons of Weeds with 15 extra pounds sad. I lost my best friend and any sort of 'thing' to fill my day to day life. But, I don't want this extra everything still hanging on my shoulders when I drive into Lower Manhattan. No! I want to be strong beautiful and confidant, just like I know I can be, and have been for such a long time. 

Due to my "ADD" I have already started to wander off.  So here I will list my goals out, to hopefully be completed by AUGUST 29:

1. My room will be clean, and STAY clean. Everything will have it's place, and no longer will there be organized piles of junk.

2. Finish Othello. What a wonderful school assignment.

3. Loose Weight (now here is the tricky one). I would love to be back to my good ol' weight of... 140-145. So my dear people I will have to loose that 15 lb of depression Gabe left me with. I've started walking with my mom. So far in the past 2 days I've done 7 miles. But it's more than just exorcise! I must start eating healthy again. This will probably be one of my biggest focuses this entire blog.

4. Pack for college; which includes last minute shopping and emotions that shouldn't come trailing behind.

I think that's all for now. Someone in my head is calling me to map the last year of adventures.

Adieu

emily